How to deal with pain?

I realised that being a happy person can take a lot of work especially when one has a history of unfortunate events or happening. But it doesn't mean that it is an impossible task.

How most of us deal with pain is by the following method:
1) denying it by hiding it away
2) shut down and pretend nothing has happened
3) blame someone or something for it
4) hurt ourselves in extreme cases
5) build a wall around it and throw it into the dungeon

We do all the above and perhaps even a combination combat technique to deal with pain. Though we may not face pain and misery daily. But when given the time and leisure, one of them might pop out and create wreckage for the day.

I have gone through a lot of pain and misery from a series of unfortunate events. Some of them go as far back as 10 years again. I didn't have the courage to deal with it then. So the burden is getting heavier and heavier each year, causing me to move away from my path more and more.

Starting now, I am going to heal myself. How? Simply by letting it go. Simply by acknowledging the emotions. Be not afraid of facing it. For that is part of the growth experience from releasing the pain. Have courage.

I have a hell of a GOOD time!

WOOHOO!!!

I went to Dragonfly at St James Power Station last evening. The 1st impression wasn't amazing as it looks like any other disco/pub. Slowly as we hit midnight, the entertainment and music became better and much more interesting.

It was pretty fun! Except I got myself drunk for the 1st time in 7 years! Urgh... and erm... waking up so early? Don't ask me why.

It was great to party once in a while. Of course the right crowd is important. And an Angel Guardian who is responsible for my safety and getting me home without harm. Thank you girls! Thank you so much! A BIG kiss for you both!

Excuse me, I need to puke now.

Tightening my belt! >.<

I have made a resolution to tighten my belt to pay for my house mortgage on my own without my husband's help, on the condition that he does not own the house, i.e. I have own 100% of it.

So starting April 2007, Mabel is going to be a boring plain Jane. No more shopping. No more fine dining. Just simply paying off mortgage, study loan, bills. No more fun, Jane Doe.

Please do me a favour, do not tempt me with anything from now onwards. Your kindness willl be very much appreciated.

Happy Birthday Riley!

Today is my little nephew 1st year birthday! Happy birthday mini Jay Chou! Hee hee... he does look very much like him.

It's been a while since I met up with my family for a dinner. It was nice. Only one person ask about Erich. The rest didn't say anything and I didn't tell anything.

Sadly for me, as I have not eaten much for the last few days. My stomach protested with immediate diarrhea from today's dinner. It is coming out furious and painful. I guess I'm back to no food tomorrow to rest my tummy.

Basil Alcove

I was truly led by the nose when I discovered this little restuarant at the side of Fortune Centre. The fragrantful dishes caught my nose and I immediately got a good impression of nice food.

I tried a few dishes with a friend today. Excellent is the only word I can describe it. Delicious, value-for-money, prompt serving, generous portion, fresh ingredient and etc. Although the ambience can improve, it is still relatively cozy little place out from the busy street.

I would love to treat the set lunch one day. I missed my uni days where I got to go out with my girlfriends to places like this. To cafes where we will have coffee or tea with some nice cakes or pastry or dessert to have a wonderful afternoon tea, chit-chatting or bitching session.

Life of a tai-tai which I once enjoyed. Now I'm just another working girl, needing to pay bills, mortgages, debts, loans, etc. Still a little small luxury like this is very much appreciated.

Blithe Spirit @ NLB Drama Centre

I went to watch Blithe Spirit today with my husband. Truthfully, I was a little disappointed.

No, the production is great. No, the acting is great. I particularly enjoyed Tan Kheng Hua and Neo Swee Lin acting. Tan has excellent portrayed a naughty whimsical self-centred spirit while Neo tried as best to be the understanding wife.

I love Selena Tan, but the portrayal of the psychic is weak. Believe me, I do not feel it is entirely her fault. It is more of the scriptwriter's simplistic and naive idealogy of psychic as stereotype by the evening papers. Much can be improved on that character building. Mdm Acarti is definitely a charlatan!

I guess I have a pretty high expectation on our veteran actors and actresses. Still, a play is a play is a play. It is entertaining enough for the general public. Good job guys!

FIRST Public Blog

This is the very first public blog for me even though I have been blogging for a while.

Things going to change for me as of today. I will be blogging all my happiness, new challenge, new experience, etc. Just a bit of something which I would like to share.

Wishing you happiness, Mabel!